stay

Do you tired on me?

No, I’m not tired of you

In fact, I’m kindly ask you not to lose hope on me

There is only so much that I can not do

But still, I don’t take you for granted

You’re precious to me

Please accept me for who I am

so many things to do, so little time..

panik…panik…

to do list-nya masih panjang..

huaaaaaaaaaa….

 

panik tapi sempet-sempetnya nge-blog. hehe..

wish me luck, guys!

if i could, i would love to…

as i said in the previous post, i was “judged” as an introvert-type person. but in fact, hmm…i think i would not agree with the result *my friends too, i guess*

you can barely say that i’m an introvert person. i talk a lot, hardly can keep a secret (of mine), hate silence (so much that i always need to break it) and other indicators stating that i’m not an introvert person (if can’t be categorized as extrovert =P).

it seems that an extrovert person will be “a great buddy”, “fun”, or “always know what to do” in a public times. but as my mentor, Bu Imung, said on the training, being extrovert didn’t mean you never get nerves facing public. in fact, an extrovert will get more difficulties leading themself in front of public. hee? why? because they can’t stand silence, they think in the same time with speaking, so that they tend to be in rush and harder to take a grip on themselves.

on the other side, introvert type will lean to think before act and it really helpful in term of grip them keep on the track.

and that is what i’m facing. some may say “ooh…she used to talk, then she will be fine talking in public” but it is definitely wrong! everytime i have to make a public speaking chance (in a training, or at work presentation, etc) i will get a bad panic attack — and this just makes thing worse. uuuh..

so i think, if i could (be an introvert who has better self control)…i would love to. hehe..

 

PS: this post is made regarding to Bu Imung’s request for me and Bonas (her mentees) to be presenter in Thursday Academy program.. i haven’t found any interesting materials to be presented so far. and i’m now busy for other project of mine. anyone can help?

serendipity

I’ve just finished watching Serendipity last night. ok..ok…i know I’m a lil bit late for that..

What? Ok…fine, very late. Hehe

Many people categorized Serendipity as “the most romantic” movie ever, for them. That’s why I’m so curious to see the movie. And accidentally, I got the film when I was in Bandung last week.

After watching it, umm…well…I decided that the film was “not that good”. I admit that the film is quite romantic, speaking of love at first sight.

But in overall, the story is about selfish love. In the story plot, both Sara and Jonathan have already had fiancé and will get married soon. But they chose to leave their fiancé in order to chase “someone they think they are falls in love with” (for me it suits a proverb, “harapkan burung terbang tinggi, punai di tangan dilepaskan”). The story was selfish because they “ignore” other person feelings (besides the main character). I never like that kind of films – which thinks the main character’s interests are more important than the others so that the movie justified all ways to achieve their ego.

That’s all a (rude) comment for me about the movie. Anyone who’s disagree with me…it’s ok, everyone have their own taste

 

 PS: but I still like the word “Serendipity”, it’s “cute” yet mysterious

22 tahun

Alhamdulillah, usia ini sampai juga ke angka 22 tahun.

Sampai sore ini sudah dapat banyak surprise..

Surprise ucapan selamat tepat tengah malam

Surprise kado dari kakak

Surprise ucapan selamat dari keluarga, anak-anak Batch dan temen-temen (incl. ucapan selamat yang banyak banget di FB )

Surprise party dari temen-temen kantor.. =)

Most of all, semua doa yang teriring bersama kata “selamat” itu..

Terima kasih semua…sudah bersedia “berepot-repot” meluangkan waktu untuk satu orang yang makin tua hari ini.. =)

*semoga jadi orang yang makin pandai bersyukur*

good morning…

after a cup of tea

 

and a warm chat with friends

 

Lets start a happy-working-day

bismillah…

Selamat pagi semua! ^^

hanya selembar kain itu..

marah dan tersinggung banget baca pernyataan pemimpin partai yang ngaku-ngaku partai dakwah itu.

jadi inget kata-kata Om Cecep, “dulu orang rela masuk penjara demi memperjuangkan jilbab!”

seenaknya aja bilang jilbab “hanya selembar kain”

 

buat Anda-anda kader PKS, lihat tuh pemimpin Anda!

buat semua PKS-ers, kalau orang lain salah, Anda akan teriak paling kenceng. Sekarang “pemimpin” (ga pantes kayanya jadi pemimpin) Anda salah, BERANIKAH ANDA MENGKRITIKNYA???!

Dan please…jangan cari pembelaan atau pembenaran buat pemimpin Anda itu. Ga pantes!

katineung

Gara-gara windra pasang status “katineung” di YM nya, jadi nginget-inget arti kata bahasa sunda yang satu ini. Asa pernah dengeeeer gitu. Karena ga inget-inget, akhirnya nanya dan kata windra, kira-kira artinya terkenang, kangen (oh iya!).

By googling, dapet juga definisi ini

KATINEUNG teh asal kecapna tina TINEUNG, atawa NINEUNG, lemesna tina KANGEN, inget baé (ka nu dipikaasih); KATINEUNG: kanyaah atawa kaasih, katresnan; DIPIKATINEUNG: kainget baé; PATURAY TINEUNG: pasamoan pikeun némbongkeun katineung dina rék papisah jauh.
(ti Kamus umum basa Sunda LBSS)

Well, singkat kata, jadi nineung masa lalu, masa SMA dan kuliah..apalagi tadi malem sempet buka2 album foto yang isinya foto-foto kelas dan angkatan.

…Sesi curhat di ruang OSIS…

…Ngerencanain “METAMORFOSIS” bareng akhwat-akhwat DKM padahal SPMB udah deket juga…

…Sesi mengerjakan problem set di NF yang menyenangkan, nginep di rumah Fathia buat belajar…

…Rapat-rapat MPA di HME…

…Ikut ekskursi bareng power 2003…

…Jadi panitia P3R di Salman..

…Usroh tiap Sabtu pagi…

…Jadi panpel PEMILU HME…

…Ngerjain proyek instalasi listrik pasar seni (pulang malemnya itu lho. hehe)…

…Ngajar ke setrasari (malem-malem, sambil ngantuk-ngantuk)…

…acara induction calon pengurus HME jam 5 pagi trus sarapan lontong kari bareng di depan gerbang Ganesha…

…Ngerjain proyek WS (ehm..ehm… =P)…

…Praktikum MME bareng the best group (Nemi, Yoshita, Angga)…

…Ekskursi Power 2004…

…Kuliah Reksis by Prof Jhon beserta ujian lisannya (yes, definitely the best!) plus ngerjain tugas Reksis yang ga selese-selese sama temen-temen seperjuangan: Nidong, Ardha, Donald…

…Ngajar dan ngawas ujian PRE…

…………………………………..

 

Huaaaaa….i will always miss those memories..

floating

Ga enak berada di floating condition kaya gini

Mau melangkah, tapi masih setengah hati karena ada yang belum pasti

Pengen segera menyudahi yang tidak pasti, tapi butuh waktu dan ada ketergantungan dengan faktor eksternal

 

what should I do to mend this?

books :)

I have just finished reading “Twilight” (a little bit too late, isn’t it? :p) and “Dan Hujan Pun Berhenti”, borrowed from IMPACT virtual library — thanks to IMPACT virtual library I can borrow many good books at office, don’t have to go to library or buy book on my own–, and I am now wondering how reading a book can actually change my mood

Somehow, reading a book can make me “trapped” into the story world. I am kind of person who can not stop reading a book  once I have started it. And for a while, I will leave the real world: living in the story world and feeling as the story character. That’s also how the book change my mood; it usually affects me for a while after too.

Well, you can call it “in too deep” =P

and now i’m feeling melancholic =P